Like many of you, I am sure, I have been on an emotional rollercoaster for the last week.
High – King Bey(once) emerged from her secret garden of perfection to release a 1 hour special on HBO of a Saturday night at 9pm, which was enough to cut my quarterly girl’s night short (I love y’all, but BEY!!!)
Low – Prince dies suddenly and is cremated less than 48 hours later. I HAVE QUESTIONS.
High – LEMONADE. Just LEMONADE.
Am I happy? Am I sad? I don’t know how to feel. I found a meme (I LIVE for a meme) that described my feelings perfectly. The meme included a pitcher of purple-colored lemonade and the words: “When you’re excited for new Beyonce but still sad about Prince.” Again, I don’t know how to feel.
I grew up listening to Prince. My parents and aunts/uncles obsessed over him. Very similar to the King of Pop, Michael Jackson, but yet different. Prince was…Prince. The King of Shade, who I would not trust to be with ANY man I dated (oozed sex appeal without even trying). The only grown man who could steal your woman wearing her clothes. Another one bites the dust, and we’re left wondering “why???”.
Enter Beyonce, who was one of Prince’s biggest fans and who was inspired by him as an artist. I can’t imagine preparing to release my most important and most personal album to date and then learning one of my idols — the reason I do this thang called music — has passed on, and will never be able to hear what I’ve created. I know she must have been hurt (or maybe he experienced Lemonade long before we did).
So, after experiencing ‘Lemonade’, a week after her teaser trailer was released, giving you all this time to speculate WTF it meant, were you spot-on? Did you have any idea that she would come this hard and (in my opinion) air all of her dirty laundry in a diss RECORD about her husband? Fans are split about whether Bey used the experiences of women she loved (mama, sister, best friends, etc) to infuse such emotion into her songs, or if Jay is THEE dumbest motha****** on the planet and stepped out on her. I’m a huge Bey fan. I’ve seen every video, I’ve sung very song, and I’ve watched (struggled through) every movie or show in which she has acted. I will tell you that she can’t act her way out of a paper bag. The girl is awful. That said, after watching Lemonade and listening to Lemonade at least 3 times in as many days, the girl has gone through something. Something bad. Something hard-wrenching. And Jay did it. So…..who the **** is Becky?
I STILL HAVE QUESTIONS.